haiz..
i felt sad..
not bcoz of one reason..
but bcoz of many reasons..

first, of coz im sad that my parents are not wit me to celebrate hari raya haji..
i hope they are ok..
performing their haj well..
i havent receive any news from them..
god onli noes how worrie i am..
haiz..

secondly..
i talked to my manager,nicole, juz now after work..
and she tell me and an many things..
most of the things i dunno bcoz im new there..
and listening to her story showed me that ppl have two sides in them..
one side good, one side bad..
and ppl give in juz to please others are juz bullshits..
i felt lyk crying beside her bcoz i pity her soo much..
imagine her husband did that to her..
k, here's the situation..

imagine, u have a stead..
and ur stead do SIALAN(malay word) in front of u..
lyk letting ppl of the same sex of u to touch,kiss him/her..
and the worst is, ur stead ask u whether he/she can hug and kiss the gurl/boy..

omygod!!
put urself in that pole position..
what wud u do??
me n an agreed, that if that were to happen to us, both our gurl and that guy will be killed..
it doesnt matter if we go to jail or wad..
its better to feel the 'kepuasan' that both are dead..
better den we see them bermesra..
ryte??

i asked nicole, 'arent u heartbroken??'
she said, 'i cant do aniting wad.. he wants to do that.. to me, let other ppl be happy..'
i was like ??????????????
i was sad..
things like dis realli happen..
nicole is the best manager i can ever see..
she knows how to tke cre of her staff's feeling..


haiz..
wad she tell me make me wake up..
its not easy to make any decision..
bcoz it will affect ur future..
u choose it, it will go that way..
haiz..


life is full of choice..
choose the ryte one..




seringku bertanya kepada isi hatiku..
mengapa hidupku ini sepi..
haiz..
i dunnola..
nk klua ngan dia tk tau bile..
nk kol dia sikit nye susah..
bile tk keje samer, kejer pon samer..
juz think one thing la..
if i did that to u, wud u lyk it??
how wud u feel??
u said that u want a REAL relationship..
den show me that u realli want it..
i always give in not bcoz i want to be a good bf..
listen to u all the time..
im not..
i give in bcoz i want to see how long will dis go on..
issit that difficult to go out with u??
haiz..
let me sigh in my blog..
its the onli place that i can let my feelings out to..
who else is ard me ??
i dont lyk to trouble my bros..
and im not a gurl, who let out feelings to their buddies..
that's not soo me..
i keep things to myself..
mintak maaf lau terkasar bahase..
wadeva la..
im tired of saying bout tis..



on the brighter side..
let me end the year of 2006 wit a smile..
and enjoy life..
even though its lyk shit..

tke crezz n calobete..
PRAWN TOAST!!!!!!

selamat hari raya haji!! =)

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