actualli, im not allowed to use the internet,the phone n one more important thing, to go out whenever i want to..
n it is totalli making my blood go upstairs..
fuck ryte???
wadever seh..
the modem was 'kept secretly'..
n they act as if im stupid..
gong!!!!
i found it onli after 5 mins of searching..
its realli hell for me this few days n tis will go on till, i dunno when..
so ppl..
im not blogging as often now..
i'll blog when there's noone at home..
like now...

i realli dont understand my parents nowadays..
they blame me for not studying..
u see..
i've been failing my test last time..
but lately,
i've been passing..
n, like every other ppl, we want to hear words like, 'keep it up..'
or other nice2 words..
but my parents, what do i get??
nagging, scolding n wadeva2..
sometimes im realli jealous of my frens..
they didnt get scolding when they get an average mark..
my parents???
i realli dunno wad to say..
they are juz taking my freedom from me..
no more soccer, no more going out n all those things which teenagers like me do..
wadeva seh..
n my father said something which realli hurt me..
onli stoopid ppl like me will still stay in this house..
others, i guess they will juz get out..
come on larr..
talk as if i have no feelings..
haiz...

its true tat my relationship with them were not that good since young..
like others, they talk to their parents about their probs..
at least they do talk..
me??
not at all..
wadever problem tat i face, im on my own..
n im gonna stay on like tat..
i dont need their support..
coz im ok with it..
though as a child, there'll be some sort of jealousy when ur parents are much more closer to ur siblings, wadevalarh..
i realli have nothing to ask frm them..
not even a little love..
coz i believe no parents will say something that bad to their child..
i juz want some freedom..
freedom to do aniting i want..
n issit difficult??
they want me to study all the time.. crazy seh!!!
n they are blaming that JWSS have made me like this.. WTH??
they juz have no idea of a young adult's life nowadays..
but they've hurt me deeply..
dont ever think that im gonna be in this house as often after my 'o' level..
coz i'll be out there either njoying myself or working..
n do wad i want..
n get wad i want to achieve..

but how much i hate them, how much they've hurt me,how much they hate me, i LOVE u mom,dad..


enuf of that..
skool is fine..
im retaking my MT..
its my life anyway..
some ppl called me stoopid..
wadeva!!!
EL oral's thursday..
im not prepared at all..
haiz!!!!!!!!
stress...



there's no support for me now.. its onli me, myself and i..
the future looks blur..............
im all alone now....

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